Monday, June 4, 2012

It's Summer Time!

It's Summer Time!


This summer I want to turn the sprinklers on for my kids and run through them with them. 
This summer I want to let them have ice cream for morning snack.
This summer I want to stop more, play more, and listen more.
This summer I want to play dress up with my girl and let her glam me with glitter and pearls!
This summer I want to slow down and watch my kids have a blast in our home.
This summer I want to take morning walks with my kids.
This summer I want to take them to the park more often - even if it's hot, humid and buggy!
This summer I want to make berry shortcake  with whipped cream for dinner.
This summer I want to make a batch of homemade lemonade and sit on the deck it with my family.
This summer I want to create memories of laughter with my family!

This summer I want to make sure that those little times, those pedals and pushes, and late afternoon hours playing together before a muggy thunderstorm rolls in really matters - in fact, really happens.




After all, look at them. Growing up.

Right in front of me. First they crawl, and then the walk, then they run, then they ride their bikes, and scooter, and on and on growing. Every day. One step older, one more moment of letting go.

This summer I want to take a bike ride next to them.
This summer I want to play catch in the backyard.
This summer I want to surprise them with really cool trips - beach, sand, fishing, fun!
This summer I want to remember to slow down.
This summer I will push through and try to understand that video game he really likes!

But, if you are like me, we lose track of that thought. We get stuck in the short sight - all we need to accomplish (that ever growing TO DO list!) or finish, or what they're not doing right or what needs to change or what we're making for dinner - that stuff. And we lose the idea that this day, this moment, this scooter ride down the hill and back, this matters.


Yes, we absolutely have to do all the short every day to day stuff, there's no way around it - the dishes, the TO DO list, the cleaning, the working, the laundry folding, etc - it's just part of life. But, we could get stuck only doing the to-do list and missing those moments that we'll want to remember. Are we really wanting to look back and remember that we got all those dishes done or the laundry was perfectly caught up or we sent that perfect tweet for this summer of 2012?

This summer I want to pay attention to the mom watch my cool trick moments.
This summer I want to look with wonder at that bee in the flowers.
This summer I want to look at both my kids in the eyes and tell them how much I love them.
This summer I want to take my oldest to see a late midnight movie.
This summer I want to rest in the grass and look for cloud shapes with my seven year old.
This summer I want to take them camping, real camping - in a tent on a cool mountain top.
This summer I want to worry less about the dirt and more about the heart.

It's too easy to race through the day, being busy, and than get to the end of the day when our little people  need to go to bed and to realize that less then ten minutes of time was really spent with them. Summer, despite the lazy hazy days of summer line has the tendency to actually race by with it's own form of busy. And, if we're not intentional the summer could pass, this summer, without accomplishing many of the things in our hearts that we want to do.



Make a list, my friends, make a list. Sit down, take ten minutes, and ponder what you really want to do, what would matter to your family, to others this summer.

This summer I want to surprise my husband with fabulous date nights, where I listen!
This summer I want to value our days and cherish every moment of his love for me!
This summer I will speak his love language and value every day we have been given! 

This summer I will find creative ways to show how I appreciate all he gives to our home!

 

You've got your to-do lists. Now, add a this summer list. I've shared with you a bit of my list in progress throughout the post. Will you check everything off? Probably not. Will it make you more intentional? Definitely yes. Before you know it this summer will be gone - summer has a way of doing that - grab this time, this summer - and really intentionally live capturing those moments that matter and that you want to remember.

Friday, November 18, 2011

My Song

He has given me a new song to sing, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see what he has done and be amazed. They will put their trust in the Lord.  Psalm 40:3 New Living Translation (NLT)  

 




I wish I had more of the creative, artistic ability to write a song from our part of the story from these last few weeks.  Until I can employ or implore someone to help me write a song from this journey, I'll keep on singing LOUD in my own special, creative, "can't carry a tune in a bucket" kind of way!  I can't keep quiet so I hope you will enjoy the tunes with me!

On September 30th we began a journey of watching first hand being established on a different level of God's peace and authority!  A level that has propelled us into a greater understanding of God's love,  His protection,  His power to heal and the power He gives to us as His children to withstand whatever the enemy may try to throw at you!   Earlier in the year we knew we had heard a specific instruction in our prayer time of a promise God had for the Haas family in 2011!   We have had a front row seat watching God's Word become living and active over our lives! 


Here's the story ...  
Chris had to have an emergency gall bladder removal on Friday, September 30th.  What would normally be a routine surgery ended up resulting in a 24 day luxurious stay in the hospital and continuing in week 4 of his continued miraculous healing at home!  The gall bladder removal had resulted in a bile duct rupture/leak that was not found until 6 days post surgery, causing his organ function to take a nose dive and begin to fail.

It was Thursday, October 6th and after 4 days of no sleep, I still strongly remember the doctors remarks of, "We are not sure Chris is going to be ok.  He is in organ failure and multiple blood clots have been found in both lungs.  We are going to do all that we can to help him and make him comfortable at this time.  We will keep you posted".   I saw their fear.   I smelled the angst of enemy's tactics to try to take him out.  I wasn't afraid of the doctor's expression or their uncontrolled fear.  I can confidently shout that I was never afraid that Chris would die.  I was tired yes, but I never feared for his life.  I felt God's peace protecting every part of he and I - our minds, our physical bodies and our spirit.   I knew God's promise to us would be seen!  We needed a miracle and we knew we could depend on Him to show up!


The following weeks Chris had to have 3 drainage ports to help remove the bile off the organs.   As every day passed, we began to see an increase of health in every organ!  Each blood draw would confirm that every organ was getting stronger and stronger.  Healing was happening!  

Chris had not eaten ANYTHING for 2 and half weeks.  He had lost over 25 lbs in since being admitted to the hospital!  (His commentary, "It was the most expensive and difficult weight loss plan ever!  Never do it!  P90X is best!)   We celebrated every step of healing - 1st ice chips eaten, 1st sips of clear fluids,  1st soft foods,  then holy smokes - His 1st steps on a lovely walk with me!  We were beyond thankful for the many calls, coffee deliveries (I'm still recovering from detox from the many Starbuck's cups consumed), meal deliveries for our family, fun care for our kids,  and the many visitors and prayer partners around the world that has shown such love for us and many who stood firm for this miracle!  We love you all so much and thank God for you!


It's just like the enemy to try to take down another if he can't take down the initial rebel.   We know how his tactics work to bring torment, confusion and destruction.   Just so you know... he doesn't win!  

Here's the rest of the story that many don't know...  I had an intestinal illness that began to hit me on October 17th.  A CT scan the following day showed great concern to the doctor.  "We have found a 1/2" renal cell carcinoma on your left kidney.  We see that there is a cancer spot on your left kidney Mrs. Haas.  It is a great concern to us. You will need to see a specialist in 3 days".  Yes,  I said they found cancer in me!  I remember sitting there in shock!  Thinking to myself and saying loudly, "What!   You have got to be kidding!  There is no way!  Really?   What!".     Imagine my confusion and issue of listening to this report after we just walked through Chris' attack? Can you imagine my emotions at that point - Having to go back upstairs, to room 2219 - to tell my husband, who by the way - almost died just 2 weeks ago, that I have been diagnosed with a type of cancer!   


I am sure you could have seen the visible transition on my countenance as I had cried from being tired,  confused, sleep deprived after a 21 day stay, getting healed up from stomach stuff to.. EXTREMELY MAD!  I got violently mad, angry and yes ... a little more than mad.  "You've messed with the wrong people this time!  You have no idea who or what you are dealing with"!  Something rose up in us that had never before.  A resounding - ENOUGH!  Back Off!  A strength and confidence in God's power in us that could take any of the enemy's demon's - head on.  Bring on your ugly self, we know how this ends, kind of mad!  Chris and I declared against the gates of hell that this was FINISHED.  We fasted.  We prayed.  We took communion there in the hospital room. We knew God could heal me!  We had already seen a miracle of restoration in Chris' body!  We knew almost every continent, friends in every timezone, friends across every continent was agreeing scriptures over us for healing!   God would do what He promised!  

We've kept this close to our hearts, not allowing doubt to creep in.  We worshiped bigger.  We gave greater in our love, our serving, our trust, our obedience.  We trusted a God who would be seen!  We chose that day how to "take it to a whole 'notha level" (as Pastor Troy would say!) in our spiritual authority!

Here's the continuing love story... Chris was able to come home on October 21st!  He has been continuing to heal, rest and get a little "back to normal" with enjoying his favorites - reading, journaling, History Channel and laughing hysterically with the kids.  His organ function is off the charts compared to where they were 3 weeks ago and he is gaining more and more strength each day.  The doctors are amazed at his body healing so well!  He can't wait to be fully back into action!
Here is the awesome, incredible, make you wanna shout news received this week!   Yesterday, I received MRI results from last week's scan.  Per the doctor, "Nickie your spot that "looked to be there", is inconclusive.  It's so much smaller than a few weeks ago.  This is not cancer.  This is nothing that is of concern.  Again, Nickie this is shrinking and it's not cancer.  I'm not sure how all this happened so quickly.  I don't want to see you again till April".  People I tell you - God heals!   This chick is cancer FREE!  

Eliana said this in the car one night after visiting her Daddy at the hospital, "The devil is stupid and comes to only steal, kill and destroy stuff.  I'm tired of him trying to do this to my family. I want to kick him in the crotch!".   Yes... that's our girl!   To help clarify to her, of course I had to explain to her how we "kick him where it hurts" when the enemy tries to devour our lives.   

Our Fighting Terms!
1.  We worship bigger than we ever have!  We press in. We did not allow circumstances to determine our level of adoration!

2.  We surround our lives with the living Word! We were protective of allowing any doubt to creep in.  We kept God's promises in the forefront of our lives and surrounded ourselves with those we knew would bombard the gates of hell with us with no doubt of watching God's healing be a part of our story.

3.  We pray & STAND!  Agreeing with God's Word!  Standing is not passive.  It's active and sometimes takes more stamina and strength that taking that first step of a run.  We stood and refused to be denied this miracle. 
What the enemy has tried to destroy is only going to propel God's kingdom further!   We are excited to be a part of God's love story on display! 
Many long nights while hearing the pumping sound of IV pumps, siren's entering the Emergency Room bay and between nurses visits, these promises were deposited deep into every part of Chris and I.  
I hope that you will allow God to birth in you a new song!   
Sing loud!

Psalm 138:3 The Message (MSG) The moment I called out, you stepped in; you made my life large with strength.

Psalm 57:7 My heart is confident in you, O God; my heart is confident. No wonder I can sing your praises!"

 

Psalm 118:6 The Message (MSG) God's now at my side and I'm not afraid; who would dare lay a hand on me?

Isaiah 41:9 New Living Translation (NLT) I have called you back from the ends of the earth, saying, ‘You are my servant.’ For I have chosen you and will not throw you away.

 

John 16:33 Amplified Bible (AMP) I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have [perfect] peace and confidence. In the world you have tribulation and trials and distress and frustration; but be of good cheer [take courage; be confident, certain, undaunted]! For I have overcome the world. [I have deprived it of power to harm you and have conquered it for you.]

Isaiah 41:10 Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.


Psalm 91:2 New Living Translation (NLT) This I declare about the Lord: He alone is my refuge, my place of safety; he is my God, and I trust him.

 

Isaiah 53:4-5 But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon Him; and with His stipes we ARE healed.
 

2 Chronicles 20:17 New Living Translation (NLT) But you will not even need to fight. Take your positions; then stand still and watch the Lord’s victory. He is with you, Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord is with you!”

Joshua 21:25 Not one of all the Lord's good promises failed; every one was fulfilled!

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

5 Of My Favorites!

I had to write a post this month about a few of my favorite things!

I'm a pretty busy Mom, Wife and Friend!  I love being busy and love doing all that I get to do.  I sincerely enjoy my life!   I don't know how many can really say that, but I really love each part I get to play!   

I have a few major things I'm a part of in this season and I love finding resources that keep me organized, encouraged and productive.  A few of these roles include serving on staff at an amazing church in Children's Ministries,  volunteering as Director for an annual non-profit fundraising 5K & Family Walk,  homeschooling my 6th grade son and partnering monthly with our local YMCA to host monthly community prayer groups.  I love all I get to do and it's truly an adventure!  I love it!  

With all of these roles I have in addition to being wife, mom, daughter, sister and friend  -I need tools to help keep me organized & focused!  My strong sanguine fun girl tends to come out strong when I am not surrounded by organizational tools while balanced with fun resources!  

Here are my recent TOP 5 favorites!


1.   Staples Apprentice Rotating Desk Organizer

http://www.staples.com/Staples-The-Desk-Apprentice-Rotating-Desk-Organizer/product_597003

I love how I have so much space to store files, projects, supplies and all my favorite office tools!    With all the many things I work on ... this was perfect for my desktop space!   I love how it spins!   Fun for this chick too!





2.  Frixion Erasable Pens - I enjoy knowing I can erase in my lesson planning notes, as well as any calendar updates or meeting notes!  Colorful & clean!  Much better than those old models!

http://www.pilotpen.us/Categories/23-ErasableInk.aspx











3.  Social Media  - I stay connected with so many industry trends with all I am a part of through social media like Facebook, LinkedIn, Twitter and also through many blog subscriptions!  It's a great way to stay up to date with current trends in homeschool, ministry, family life, leadership and so much more!   We have so much on our phones too to learn with!  There is absolutely NO REASON to be out of the loop with current industry trends, news and updates with whatever you are a part of!    

www.facebook.com
www.linkedin.com








4.   iMom.com
One of my favorite new found resources is iMom.com!  What a wealth of tips, fun ideas and resources for any family! 
 Check it out at www.imom.com









5.  Bible app for my Droid!                                                  
I love knowing that I've got this with me wherever I go!  Stopped at Sbucks Drive Thru - need a word?  Got it!   With a friend over lunch - need a word?  Got it!   Want that quiet moment late at night when you can't sleep - need a word?  Got it!   I love the Life Journal Reading plan and continue to write out my journaling notes, savoring the specific things God speaks during my quiet moments. 

Don't get me wrong, I love the printed pages of my hot pink Bible still just as much!   But there's nothing like having this with me!                                                                

I'm off to spin my "apprentice organizer" happily! 

What are you using to keep things organized with the various roles you play?

Monday, June 6, 2011



Here's the deal ... 
I was in an online conversation a few weeks back and after confronting a situation that was dishonoring to another, the person asked me "So it was YOUR place to publicly tell me I was dishonoring?"  ... my reply to this "friend" was,  "YES"!   God placed me in this conversation to SPEAK.   Not to yell, attack, belittle or slander - but to SPEAK.    I have a voice.  I'm on this journey of learning to love my voice like my Father loves my voice.   To see that my voice brings value, grace and even restoration in the middle of a confrontation.

It got me thinking and stirred me to really reflect on what God's design was for me in this season.  You see, in the past I'd been quiet on some things that I really should've brought a greater (not louder) voice to.   Oh sure, I have shared my "two cents" a few times when given the chance or welcome.   I'm not talking about joining in on the ranting and public disagreements that may be seen on street corner protests.  I'm speaking of the inner quiet voice, many times in the private settings of conversation and friendship, when God challenges you to SPEAK.  That kind of challenge may be to speak up on the behalf of someone who may be lowly in spirit.    The challenge to speak up to bring honor back to a life or a place.   The challenge to ask friends hard questions when lives seem to be going in a little different direction.   The challenge to speak up when your loyalty to vision is questioned.  The voice had not spoken many times due to fear and insecurity.   Speaking up can sometimes bring correction, then healing - in me just as much as others.  Speaking up is the reflection of God's heart. 

In this season, I'm more aware and reminded that God has given me a voice.  A voice that can listen to when my Father wants me to speak, with the voice He wants me to speak.   I have a voice - to speak, to ask, to share, to relate, to love.   I'm learning to love my voice! 



Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Captivated!

Anyone who knows me, knows I like to be busy, active, engaged and captivated by life.  I love every part of living and don't want to miss a thing!   This has been a busy season for me, and I must declare to the world that I am loving each & every moment.  In all that I get to be a part of, I really count it an honor to serve in the many areas that I have the chance to be connected to!  

I am honored that God has given me an incredible husband and children to get to share this most sacred life with!  I get to be a wife and Mom!  Both childhood dreams that God has made happen!   I get to serve God's house, God's people and connect others to His vision for freedom at Freedom House Church!    I get to be a part of some incredible organizations who are impacting lives for restoration and healing like Mercy Ministries!   I am surrounded by such loving, passionate people that I get to learn from, share life with and be on this adventure not isolated in a silo!  I have long time devoted family & friends who I know love me and "have my back"! 

It is such an honor to have this life.  My life.   I get to live this life!   I get to live this life!   I'm especially thankful for the crazy days, busy schedules, sibling arguments, burned dinners, wrinkled laundry - it's all mine!    It means I'm living.   I'm here.  I'm captivated!

Tonight's blog may not be a bright lights, big "to-do" to you, but this heart is thankful, honored and captivated by God's love that He would think of me to be a part of this story!

Thursday, April 28, 2011

I Believe I Can Fly!


Over the last few weeks we've had a wonderful front row seat watching spring life unfold!   It's been a great learning opportunity on our homeschool journey, but it's also stirred up a few great reminders for my own heart.   

A little Starling bird had built a perfect nest on the bright green ivy growing on our front porch post.   Two eggs arrived, then six.  She carefully cared for the eggs and we were very aware to not go too close to startle her or cause fear to her home.   Of course, this was not always guaranteed with our little six year old curious mind!   A few weeks had passed and on one of Eliana's daily inspection of the abode, we discovered 4 babies!  Then 6!   They were all here!     

Chris would hear the baby birds chirp so loudly when they sensed "Momma" was around!   He would call the kids to the office window to have them watch as they were fed and quieted.   One morning we found that one little bird had fallen out of the nest and did not make it through the day.  My husband was the grand hero and didn't let the kids see this hard life lesson part!    I must confess,  I did shed a tear or two knowing that the little bird didn't have a chance!

We've been watching this nest intently.  Checking in on how the feathers are forming, the yucky-ness of the nest at this point and watching carefully each day to see when they would fly!   Yesterday we checked and only two birds remained!   I'm not sure what happened to the others.  One thing I did learn with a little research on the link below, is that the "Momma" bird would have removed any dead birds from the nest.  Talk about a hard job!  

This afternoon Chris checked and the two birds were on the edge of the nest - ready at any moment to leap!    This evening - gone!   They had taken that huge step to start their new little life.    Taken that step to fly!  Taken that risk to leave the nest!   Taken the step to trust, live and FLY!

I'm proud of these little creatures!  I don't know how the rest of their story will play out, but it's been fun watching this side of it with a front row seat!   I want to live like them.  God, I know  you will always push me when I'm hesitant.  You'll nudge me out of my comfortable place to keep me fully trusting you.   You will prepare me for that moment and surround me when I take that leap to "fly" into what you've called me to do!  

Fly Birdies Fly!

 


All About Starlings!  http://www.sialis.org/starlingbio.htm

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

It's NOW time!



It's back to the Haas routine this week!   Our time in Seattle was great as we got to learn from some great ministry leaders!  It was also a treat to reconnect with some dear friends that we've had the chance to serve in ministry with.   These are dear, long time friends that we've gotten the chance to watch their children grow and develop into God loving, culturally relevant, generational leaders!  What a gift to be able to watch their lives be at this place!

We got to hear from intense children's ministry leaders as well and the resounding theme that God was speaking to us was,  "Reach them before they have to be rescued"!  There is so much that God wants to invest in this generation of children NOW!   NOW-God can and will use them!   NOW-God will speak through them!  NOW-God's Word can become real, relevant and relational to them!   This not only hit me with relationship to ministry with children, but with MY children and all we provide at home!

As we returned home, it got me thinking more about our kids and reminded me again of the imperative call from God to invest everything God has given us to our children.  As a parent, we have the mandate to train them, develop them and equip them for all God has in store.  It's not always going to be an easy adventure, but I'm confident God will direct us as parents to know when, what, where and how.  The Holy Spirit will be faithful to reveal, show and instruct ME on the behalf of my children.   There is truly no greater joy than to watch a child's destiny begin to unfold.    It is a true joy to be at this season of my life!   I'm seeing glimpses now of promises God had made regarding my children.  I'm watching talents, abilities and passions grow!   I'm watching them dream!   I'm watching God perform miracles in their lives!    What an honor to get this front row seat!

Here's what I'm thinking about ... What environment am I providing for my kids?  What other leaders am I purposefully bringing into their lives to learn from?    Within the lines of  preparing & protecting them, are they culturally relevant and aware of our culture - within the church and outside the church?   What is God challenging me with in this season to be more aware of?   Asking - Do they honor others?   Do they serve with a happy heart?   Do they understand God's plan for where they are in their life - NOW?     Do I ask the questions - What is God asking you to work on right now?  What is God saying to you?   How are you doing with ______?  (You know what to fill in the blank with! Or you better!)    


I'm challenging myself and you to apply these tidbits to your family and your church like never before!

Get connected in your home with children!   Get connected in YOUR church in serving this generation!

No more excuses!

The rewards are phenomenal!